David is returning from his weekend away. I still have my son with me. It’s Sunday September 11th. We do another quick drive-by meeting. I sneak out to walk with him in the neighborhood park.
Geez! He looks scrumptiously handsome. This never gets old! I’m drawn to him as if he’s a magnet the size of the Eiffel Tower and me a small dust speck of iron!? INSANE!!
David says ‘I couldn’t tell you the words last time because they fall short in describing how I feel.’ We halt. He looks into my eyes as he declares what I know already- ‘I love you Anita.’
If the skies had burst into fireworks I didn’t notice. I closed my eyes and tried to digest this moment. His arms are around me. I am madly-outrageously in love and intensely-ecstatically grateful. It feels dreamy. It doesn’t help that it’s been eleven days and nights now that I haven’t allowed my body any sleep…still terrified of letting go of this surreal and impossibly perfect dream I find myself in. I open my eyes and he is still present and real! I allow my senses to take him in. I look into his eyes, hold him close and kiss him.
I close my eyes again and feel his spirit….and I’m totally engulfed by our profound and tenacious spiritual connection….I sense everything he’s feeling and it matches right back, with a vengeance, all of the intensity I feel inside of me too for him.
He repeats again that he loves me. I bury my face in his neck. I find myself inhaling him…as if I’m returning from a near death drowning experience. He’s the oxygen I require to breathe again…to return to the living. I feel my soul awakening…coming alive after years of being lost, scared and suffocated.
Then it’s time to split again!
Soon after he leaves he finds one more way to completely shake up my world, to confirm that he’s truly my ultimate twin flame! I need to backtrack to explain. Growing up outside of the country of my origin I’d become accustomed to men describing me as exotic and it always made me cringe- as if reminding me that I didn’t belong as I was struggling to embrace my own differences. So over time I had longed for someone to tell me the exact opposite and in that spirit I made up a passcode in my heart for my soul-mate! Crazy thing is that just a few days before meeting David one late night I spoke those words out aloud to put it into the universe- ‘Soul-Mate! If you do exist and if you can hear me’ I summoned out ‘if we ever find each other…remember to tell me this passcode so I will know it’s really you’- I had said ‘Tell me when you are with me you feel at home!’ I had made this wish with all of my heart so resolutely that it had brought me to tears.
Now here we are…and this unbelievable text pops up moments after he leaves- ‘You know I just figured out something. When I am with you I feel I am home- finally!’
SHIVERS!! TEARS!! So simple! So grand!